Down the Rabbit Hole

by KATES!

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1.
You've been running your whole life Just to keep up With all the people setting the rules and expectations So today you've reached the point Hit the reset Begin to trust your own intentions You learn the people you looked up to They have their own plans and troubles Do you still believe they're above it? Do you believe they earned your pedestal? Will you continue to let them tell you That their standard is the standard? Don't be even-handed You should call them You should call them out
2.
People tell me I'm so calm and collected I keep a tight lid on that fiction Cause I'm a walking contradiction You should meet my other half Cause he's a ball of nerves and emotion Throwing fire in all directions On his favourite comment section And when you act like you're surprised It makes me feel like I've been lying Casting doubt upon my motives When I'm really just surviving You might say I have a different way of coping I keep my worries to myself Feels like I'm panicking in stealth, I know And you might say that it's a wafer-thin veneer Many times I feel it breaking Leaves my head and body aching Still I try to keep the faith I put a damper on those signals Don't ever reveal too much to someone Or you might fall out through the middle And I try not to be discouraged
3.
I Found Out 03:41
I'm walking downtown in the pouring rain And I'm looking for some shelter cause it's getting late I'm alone Can't escape the sense, and it might not be true But it feels to me like something's gotten into you I don't know What's going on? Please tell me, what's going on? Asking all your friends because I've guessed enough Till a mutual says he heard you found another love Is it true? And it chilled me to the bone as I soaked in those words Hoped that we could talk about it and we'd both be heard Me and you But someone tipped you off and now you won't come round Tried to call, I left a message but you can't be found Where'd you go? Where did you go? Now you're sneaking round back like a ginger cat And you're trying to avoid me and I don't need that I found out And now I'm walking back home in the pouring rain Try to wash away my thoughts before I go insane I found out I found out - that you were seeing someone I found out - could be that you're moving on I found out out out out...
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Neutron Star 03:53
You're like a neutron star, I think you're burning out You used to be someone, now you're just hanging about But I still believe You've got something to give All of the young folks say things behind your back And it burns you but there's so much more to unpack A survivor That's how you chose to live how you live All those years You stayed in the game Adept at the navigation They never forgot your name And it may be your twilight May be your final days So make them remember You can show them the way You were a supergiant Before you transformed into a neutron star And now that we see you It's hard to remember you've come so far Some say that you're gone But they fail to see There's still something there And it's time that you show them who you are You've got power to spare You're like a neutron star I think you're burning out Though your fading light will get to us no doubt I can feel it Can you feel it? You may be past your prime but you're still hanging round Got a few tricks left before you're dead in the ground I believe it Do you believe it?
5.
Years ago I was just like you Blinders on I thought I knew the truth Never felt Like the world was right Nothing fit Like they seemed they might Started to question I did my own research Followed the threads Revealing unseen words And now I know Everyone is wrong Stuck in their narrative It tells you what goes on You see I read it on the Internet That's where I learned their secrets And nothing's real anymore And nothing is What they say It is Can't you see what they do to us? Believe me Because I know you must All that's gone on these past few years They will use Your confusion and fear Don't trust the government They'll come and get you when they can Don't trust the experts Cause they're all They're all in They're all in on the plan Now I feel so sad for you Cause you don't know The things I know You should be so glad for me Now that I can see I've been living differently If you would only open your eyes And watch these videos You'll forget your TV shows Cause I read it on the Internet And now my mind is set Don't trust the government Cause they're using microchips And Wi-Fi signal bands To perform Experiments And they don't want you to know Oh, but my research shows That's just the way it goes Cause I read it on the Internet
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You can't fail now Not when we see what lies ahead Thought I understood you But it seems I was wrong I tried to hear you But I wasn't prepared to listen Tried to cut through the noise But your delusions were too strong I felt triggered The situation that we faced Couldn't keep my composure through my Frustration and pain And I believed that Your mind was still open But your carefree abandon Became a casual disdain This position This position we're stuck in now On our heels and we're slipping back There's a chance that we'll fall You can't let us You can't let us give in to them You know we've come way too far To lose our grip on it all You can't fail this time, no You can't fail this time, no You can't fail now You can't fail now
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I think we've finally reached the end of the line It was clear you were all but gone, we were out of time Those stories they pulled you in and they drove you down They distorted your thoughts, left your mind deep underground I wanted to believe that You're still someone I know But all I see is darkness A void that continues to grow Ooh - and I don't know how you could sink so deep Ooh - you're still physically there but I have to grieve Ooh - don't know how I could help you to disbelieve Ooh - you're aflame and adrift in a caustic sea
8.
We drove until we reached The edge of the city Against prevailing winds, we continued Into the night No destination beyond the need to escape To the country As the factions, they took control Began to close in tight I heard a rumour of a place we could go Up north in a small town They said it's somewhere we could stay That was safe from the violence But as we approached it was clear That we couldn't survive there They were exclusive to their kind Our pleas were met with silence I saw a video take over my screen It was light and lyrical An announcement about the deployment Of some kind of chemical Were gonna rain it down from the air Over our districts and neighbourhoods Had to evacuate our homes And grab only what we could When you've got nothing left to lose Tell me what life would you choose How would you make it matter? And the pastor he faced the cameras With a righteous composure As he lowered his eyes To read out the latest pronouncement His ministry proclaimed dominion Across every sector now And he recited a solemn prayer As he sealed our estrangement There were some folks still believed We couldn't have seen the warning signs For years they convinced themselves it was the same old difference So the line was crossed so many times You might think it was never there But we know that it still exists Somewhere out in the distance Like a villain's last stand at the end of a movie We were startled, but we were not exactly surprised And in that moment, we were desperate for something heroic But we knew better than to expect any final reprise And as the soldiers make their advances across the city They will capture all that's left, consolidate control So today we'll take our places outside the city But we resolve that we'll return And we will take it all Cause we've got nothing left to lose And when the time comes, we will choose To make it matter We'll make it matter
9.
And I don't know Who needs to hear it from me Yeah I don't know Who needs to hear it from me But all I know is someone's got to say it Someone needs to say it It's gone too far Used to be someone We used to value your opinions Where did things change? When did you become so hindered? And at this point I have to say it Someone's got to say it It's gone too far Yeah, you need to cut it Need to get real somehow It's gone too far Yeah it's gone too far And I don't believe you'll listen to me And I don't really care if you even agree with me And I may send you digging ever deeper But you'll know that you and I can go no further Cause if I don't say it If I don't say it Yeah, if I don't say it Who will? Cause if I don't say it Yeah if I don't say it Yeah if I don't say it No one will No one will I refuse to believe that nothing matters Even though sometimes it feels the world is shattered And I know that you're still somewhere in there And I'd let the whole thing go if I didn't care Yeah I'd let the whole thing go if I didn't care Cause if I don't say it Yeah if I don't say it Yeah if I don't say it - no one will No one will
10.
It's hard to pretend, can't see the changes I'm seeing In my neighbourhood I know the streets are the same and so are the houses But the people are colder And you tell me you understand, but at least we still care for each other We've been through our trials These past few years have put a weight on our shoulders And no one's the same And I'm sure that you sense the feeling That uneasiness in your gut when something's wrong But what's gone wrong? And sometimes it's too overwhelming The way our basest extremes, they can pull you in It doesn't take much to become untethered It doesn't take much to become unhinged Much harder to bring us around Cause there's a common thread to this story Amplifies our fears when our memories pull back too long And we turn away from our friends, our sisters and brothers Living separate lives while we sing the same old song Are we too far gone? You're too far gone In the morning, I wake up late Another restless night, was hoping for a clean slate Cause you were still there You were always there For me
11.
Always fearful of falling behind Such a hurried, strained existence Sick and anxious, heart is pounding So light on patience But who needs patience? The realization it took some time But then it happened - like a light switch And from there, there was no way No way to see it as you once did Still you find it hard to explain Your new perspective But there's no need for playing defence You followed your instinct - so shouldn't it feel better?

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Don't fall down the rabbit hole. Don't believe everything you read on the Internet. Don't believe your second cousin's husband's loopy Facebook posts. Better yet, stay off Facebook entirely. On a similar note, special thanks to those very same loopy second-cousin's-husbands for inspiring this latest collection of songs.

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released September 29, 2023

All songs written, composed, performed and produced by Dave Kates, except "I Found Out," which builds on synth loops and drum programming courtesy of Alt Altman (thanks Alt!).

Album cover is AI-generated, courtesy of Hotpot. I let the robots take over the artwork this time, but I promise the music and lyrics are still 100% from human sources.

Thanks, as always, to my family and friends for their support and encouragement through this ongoing project. Truth be told, regardless of whether anyone listens to any of this stuff, it's been an absolute saviour for my mental health to have this outlet of creativity to turn to whenever some new snippet of insanity leaves me cursing at the bathroom floor.

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KATES! Toronto, Ontario

KATES! is Dave Kates, multi-instrumentalist, family man and occasional singing robot. Currently, he divides his time between working from home, refereeing his children and recording in his basement.

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